Hi. Im a new member from Sweden, the country where this ETS-crap all began?..Hopefully people here understands me.
I did my horrible Ets-butchering in 97( both sides) simpel/quick procedure with slight compensary sweating on the chest and back I was told.. well you know that story. I got an air-pocket in one of my lungs, which could (perhaps should) have killed me. I was so so so stupid, rushing in to this crap, without knowing exactly what the op meant. I keep blaming myself over and over again... Nowadays I sure as hell realize that you dont blow up a heavily trafficed bridge just to get rid of a certain type of car..
The massive sweating started a couple of days after op. Didnt understand anything. "Learned to cope" with it and felt "lucky" after hearing about other people that got all kinds of problems...
The first shutdown occured almost exactly 3 years later. I lost my sleep. Im not talking about beeing nervous about an exam, beeing in love etc no no. When i was about to fall a sleep my body "backfired", I saw a white flash with my eyes closed, if someone dropped a pen out in the kitchen it would "hit me", super-sensitive to sound..Beeing exhausted and not able to sleep is something I cant put words to..Zombieland maybe?
However, my messed-up body mananged somehow to "recover" a bit from that in time, but never ever back to pre-op status.
Next shutdown occured Januari this year, 10 years after that is..More tired,loss of appetite, energy, now have a low libido,nothing is fun anymore, depression hits me so hard that I dont know what to do, its as if the depression is screaming in my whole messed-up body.
When I sneeze, get a chill I feel how my body wants to my send goosebumps to my arms but theres a paus for a second and it travels down below the cut. goosebumps on my arms only occurs when I eat youghurt..
I dont feel fuck-up all the time, have "good" moments as well. Beer and pot works for me as well eating vitamins,health-stuff even though Im not hungry.
Final words:
ETS is an op where you cut/take away a big piece of your soul..Is there a good/safe cure? Probably when you are having a family-barbeque on Mars..
Hope I havent scared people that "only" are dealing with their horrible sweat issues. We are all different in different bodies on this planet.
Edited per poster's request
I did my horrible Ets-butchering in 97( both sides) simpel/quick procedure with slight compensary sweating on the chest and back I was told.. well you know that story. I got an air-pocket in one of my lungs, which could (perhaps should) have killed me. I was so so so stupid, rushing in to this crap, without knowing exactly what the op meant. I keep blaming myself over and over again... Nowadays I sure as hell realize that you dont blow up a heavily trafficed bridge just to get rid of a certain type of car..
The massive sweating started a couple of days after op. Didnt understand anything. "Learned to cope" with it and felt "lucky" after hearing about other people that got all kinds of problems...
The first shutdown occured almost exactly 3 years later. I lost my sleep. Im not talking about beeing nervous about an exam, beeing in love etc no no. When i was about to fall a sleep my body "backfired", I saw a white flash with my eyes closed, if someone dropped a pen out in the kitchen it would "hit me", super-sensitive to sound..Beeing exhausted and not able to sleep is something I cant put words to..Zombieland maybe?
However, my messed-up body mananged somehow to "recover" a bit from that in time, but never ever back to pre-op status.
Next shutdown occured Januari this year, 10 years after that is..More tired,loss of appetite, energy, now have a low libido,nothing is fun anymore, depression hits me so hard that I dont know what to do, its as if the depression is screaming in my whole messed-up body.
When I sneeze, get a chill I feel how my body wants to my send goosebumps to my arms but theres a paus for a second and it travels down below the cut. goosebumps on my arms only occurs when I eat youghurt..
I dont feel fuck-up all the time, have "good" moments as well. Beer and pot works for me as well eating vitamins,health-stuff even though Im not hungry.
Final words:
ETS is an op where you cut/take away a big piece of your soul..Is there a good/safe cure? Probably when you are having a family-barbeque on Mars..
Hope I havent scared people that "only" are dealing with their horrible sweat issues. We are all different in different bodies on this planet.
Edited per poster's request
