Allow me to give you fellow readers some backround information on who I am and what I've been through this last year.
I'm a 22 year old male from Sydney Australia. I've lived what has seemed to be a normal life up until september last year when I was diagnosed with Testicular Cancer.
To cut the long story short, my right testicle was removed, leaving me testosterone deficient (doesn't happen to all TC patients) and now I must have fortnightly testosterone injections to keep my hormone levels stable and in tact.
I've always blushed and sweated profusely for as long as I can remember. It didn't seem all that bad as It would mainly occur during the summer time, so I passed it off as something everyone goes through.
During this last year, my problems have significantly worsened.
I began to notice it during the winter. I would sweat on a 15 degree (celsius) day and had people asking me if I was using tanning beds, due to the blushing of my facial area.
Things would just get worse at work. I'm a waiter who does alot of running around, taking orders, preparing food, waiting tables and so forth.
My problem was brought to my attention not so long ago when I was making a sandwich for a customer. I began feeling a warm sensation around my neck and facial area which then brought a trickle of sweat to my forehead. That trickle of sweat turned into a waterfall running down my face in just seconds.
The customer then looked at me, I looked at him, and in a rude tone then said " Don't worry about the sandwich" and stormed out of the shop.
I had looked down onto the bench I was working on and noticed a large amount of sweat was dripping from my chin onto the bench where I was preparing the sandwich.
I don't disagree with the customers comment, If I were in his shoes, I'd walk out also.
That was just one incident where my excessive sweating got me into an uncomfortable situation. There are many more that I could mention, But I'd rather keep this thread as short as possible.
This has now come to the point where I just don't want to socialise with my peers. I used to be an outgoing individual with great enthusiasm, confidence and social interactivity.
Now I just feel like a piece of meat with a heartbeat. I'm so sick of life and I just want this to end. It's summer now In Australia and I don't know how I'm going to get through it.
For the last two weeks I've been telling my mother that I hate life and I just want to die. I keep telling her that in death I will find happiness. Probably not the best thing to be telling your mother.
I just can't take it anymore and I guess noone really understands it unless they are going through it themselves. I'm considering having ETS done but from what I see on this board, everyone is completely against it.
I don't mind having compensatory sweating, just as long as it's not around my face and neck, I think I can cope with it.
I feel as if I can't progress in life until this problem goes away. I hate my job and I'd love to get out of it, but I can't see myself going into another job interview in this state.
I've lost many of friends because of this as I just refuse to do anything with them. Many have called me in the last few months and I just don't return their phone calls or messages. I hate being me and I want to go back to the start of last year.
I've contemplated suicide on many of occassions but can't seem to bring myself to do it as I'm a sucker for pain. Believe me, If I had a 9mm in my possession, I wouldn't even be here to be posting this....
Where do I go from here people? Please help a lost soul...
I'm a 22 year old male from Sydney Australia. I've lived what has seemed to be a normal life up until september last year when I was diagnosed with Testicular Cancer.
To cut the long story short, my right testicle was removed, leaving me testosterone deficient (doesn't happen to all TC patients) and now I must have fortnightly testosterone injections to keep my hormone levels stable and in tact.
I've always blushed and sweated profusely for as long as I can remember. It didn't seem all that bad as It would mainly occur during the summer time, so I passed it off as something everyone goes through.
During this last year, my problems have significantly worsened.
I began to notice it during the winter. I would sweat on a 15 degree (celsius) day and had people asking me if I was using tanning beds, due to the blushing of my facial area.
Things would just get worse at work. I'm a waiter who does alot of running around, taking orders, preparing food, waiting tables and so forth.
My problem was brought to my attention not so long ago when I was making a sandwich for a customer. I began feeling a warm sensation around my neck and facial area which then brought a trickle of sweat to my forehead. That trickle of sweat turned into a waterfall running down my face in just seconds.
The customer then looked at me, I looked at him, and in a rude tone then said " Don't worry about the sandwich" and stormed out of the shop.
I had looked down onto the bench I was working on and noticed a large amount of sweat was dripping from my chin onto the bench where I was preparing the sandwich.
I don't disagree with the customers comment, If I were in his shoes, I'd walk out also.
That was just one incident where my excessive sweating got me into an uncomfortable situation. There are many more that I could mention, But I'd rather keep this thread as short as possible.
This has now come to the point where I just don't want to socialise with my peers. I used to be an outgoing individual with great enthusiasm, confidence and social interactivity.
Now I just feel like a piece of meat with a heartbeat. I'm so sick of life and I just want this to end. It's summer now In Australia and I don't know how I'm going to get through it.
For the last two weeks I've been telling my mother that I hate life and I just want to die. I keep telling her that in death I will find happiness. Probably not the best thing to be telling your mother.
I just can't take it anymore and I guess noone really understands it unless they are going through it themselves. I'm considering having ETS done but from what I see on this board, everyone is completely against it.
I don't mind having compensatory sweating, just as long as it's not around my face and neck, I think I can cope with it.
I feel as if I can't progress in life until this problem goes away. I hate my job and I'd love to get out of it, but I can't see myself going into another job interview in this state.
I've lost many of friends because of this as I just refuse to do anything with them. Many have called me in the last few months and I just don't return their phone calls or messages. I hate being me and I want to go back to the start of last year.
I've contemplated suicide on many of occassions but can't seem to bring myself to do it as I'm a sucker for pain. Believe me, If I had a 9mm in my possession, I wouldn't even be here to be posting this....
Where do I go from here people? Please help a lost soul...
